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I'm starting to realize that I push people away when I'm scared of losing them
which is pretty much always
I hate how i do this
I'm hurting people because I'm too much of a pussy to take the chance of getting hurt
but I hurt myself in the end
so it's pointless right??
hhh

I'm truly sorry to everyone I've ever hurt. I'm sorry I'm selfish. I'm so far from perfect. Pushing people away is my "shield"
my defense mechanism i guess
I feel like i'm falling apart and i'm missing her again which is making my chest start to ache
I don't know what to do anymore
i just end up screwing everything up and fucking others over, and ultimately myself
I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say but i'm sorry
I feel like shit
i'm sorry

I can't form sentences right now so this is probably all just babbling
will prolly wake up in the morning and regret this lol oops

I'm sorry to those who are waiting on commissions
i just need a moment to collect my emotions and calm down
it's summer now so i'll have more time to do them, though



i don't want anyone's pity. I really don't.
I just want someone to listen, and by reading this, you've listened,
and i can't thank you enough for that.

it's 3:36 in the morning goodnight
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sheep1sh's avatar
KYLA ARE YOU OKAY
let me hug you okay.
I understand completely..this is basically how I feel ugh